When my heart has stopped beating and hurting while murmuring after all of the seriousness and unpolished ties, unwantings that have run me in the ground and at times shaken my mind n2 many unspoken arguments and as I rest to sleep, in my unconsciousness is where I will soon find.
Inside of my heart there is a little bruised piece of my mind that makes me stir crazy, temptations come and stay here and there leaving me stilled in feelings of contusions and a breathlessness of being lazy.
Sometimes I want to be strung off the high and numbness of crack cocaine as I inhale the feelings it gives me, my eyes leave of red and becomes so white and as my heart beats faster and faster making me want more and more however and whenever it longingly extracts me?
And 4 all of the Marijuana that I have smoked and 4 all of the acid I have instilled still breathes within me and my veins, wanting so much to do it all again and relive my old emotions that drove me totally insane.
Wakes and funeral as even my own I have seen and cried about as in my eyes I see, so much pain I keep secret and anger I deal with overcomes me and sometimes delivers my heart free and then leaves me.
Solitude, anger, broken and good relationships that have left me all alone on a cooks shelf, just wanting to have more foods to eat and some1 who has touched my deeply if I can catch myself from falling off that awaited clef.
4 my family they love ame and honor me and when I need them they are there, food and drink I recieve when I am in need with all love and Godly honesty of the upmost care.
Ties that I have binded and boned I long to always hold and cherish and when my heart will become a solid time glass, sanity in my heart I have given to many others and theirs I need it now and finally after all of this drama I made it and now I am home at last..
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